c'est la belle vie.

studying the french subjunctive is going to have to wait.

life is getting a little hectic at the moment and venting via weblog seems to be my modus operandi of late.

my parents are downright frustrating. my father informed me yesterday that even though my parents do have the money for me to live a "silver spoon" lifestyle, they will not be helping me with my financial troubles because my dad wants me to "go splat" and "figure it out for myself"...gee, thanks dad. i told him yesterday that i wasn't resentful of this fact, but that was a rather large P.O.S., the truth is that i am exceedingly resentful most of the time. if you had the money to give your child the things that would help them and make them happy, wouldn't you provide those things for them? just for this, my children are going to have every happiness that their hearts desire. i never want them to feel like i feel now, this feeling that my parents are purposefully and intentionally causing me anxiety to the point of noticeable depression.

sigh...

now for more light hearted news! the greek season finale comes on tonight. YAYZ.

no boys in sight. although roundup was by all means a success, neither one of the members of the opposite sex that i had intimate exchanges with are remotely interesting. whatever happened to ryan seems to be the result of him hanging out with a tiny delta delta delta....interesting. i seem to be losing all of my potential love interests to tridelts these days. sluts. as for me becoming what Chelsea Handler coined "the ambassador to the tropic of cancer"...those days are long gone and my ginger fetish is thoroughly worn out.

anyways, study hours are over and my couch and large pizza are calling my name.

au revoir.

long time no blog

WOW. so, it's been awhile?

life has become immeasurably different since the last post over a year ago. Ava Saidian (coauthor of another blogspot blog) has inspired me to perhaps keep up with my own more avidly.

so, from now on, i will try my hardest to remember to update you, blog!

in the meantime, stay up with current events:

http://twitter.com/#search?q=Moscow

e for effort

so i have just returned from the first club volleyball practice of the season. we scrimmaged an austin juniors 17s team at the sports center and, may is say, that it made me miss high school club ball so very much. it was the source of my best memories during the hell that was my high school experience and i have made some of the best friends ever through it. 

i just wish that i could tell those girls to enjoy every second of it and not to waste a moment with laziness because the effort that you put in during those years pays off big time. 

ok i'm done.

oh, and if i could go back and change one thing...i would have stayed a setter.

that's all.

what you see is what you get...sometimes.

i created this blog mainly so that i could keep up with my friend Heather more easily, who is now working as an Invisible Children roadie. You go, girl!

however i will try to keep this updated with things about me and my life from time to time...so here goes the first entry. 

recently a few aspects of my life have been somewhat confusing. areas that i thought were so black and white have become a mix of nasty colors. people that i thought i knew at least decently well have turned out to be more like complete strangers. but there is hope. i have found peace in the unknown and excitement in waking up every day not knowing what might happen or who i might meet. i hope that this can last for awhile.

doing things on my own is so liberating! 

thats all for now.